29-01-2018/08:28 PM
Byte before you do anything I am not doing this for drama. Im doing this cause people deserve to know.
The reason I resigned over all was because of the pressure. From the moment I became effort it was expected from everyone that I was 100% perfect. That is something i should strive to get to as an admin and would be alright but the delivery method was off. When I became admin I was told the commands to use, that was it. Everything else I was instantly expected to know. Whenever i encounted a rule breaker that I did not know what punishment to do i would message the admins in the admin section of the forums but it felt like every time I would do this I would end up being assaulted from multiple angles. This has been nawing away at my mind for quite some time now, recently ive had trouble sleeping thinking about everything I have done and how much better I could have done and how every member of this community must hate me, on my recent holiday all I could think about was invex and how I was breaking my job as admin to not be on the forums or on the server. Yhis community used to be a way to for me to escape life and the bullying that I have faced for many years out my own school with a community that I adored and so I strove for admin in the attempt to protect this community that I valued so much, then I felt hated by this community, and not just by the random trolls that i can deal with but also by members of the admin team. Out of respect for Byte and the other members involved I will not speak on the recent issue but it was the straw that broke the camels back. I was in a bad place of mind and I got pushed, I fell off the cliff and resigned. I dont want or need anymroe of that pressure and hopefully will continue my life. After all this I feel unworthy to return to this community and will not be returning in game or on the forums.
I want to thank my many dear friends who have been there with me through this journey and wish you the best but I will not be returning to have fun with you.
The reason I resigned over all was because of the pressure. From the moment I became effort it was expected from everyone that I was 100% perfect. That is something i should strive to get to as an admin and would be alright but the delivery method was off. When I became admin I was told the commands to use, that was it. Everything else I was instantly expected to know. Whenever i encounted a rule breaker that I did not know what punishment to do i would message the admins in the admin section of the forums but it felt like every time I would do this I would end up being assaulted from multiple angles. This has been nawing away at my mind for quite some time now, recently ive had trouble sleeping thinking about everything I have done and how much better I could have done and how every member of this community must hate me, on my recent holiday all I could think about was invex and how I was breaking my job as admin to not be on the forums or on the server. Yhis community used to be a way to for me to escape life and the bullying that I have faced for many years out my own school with a community that I adored and so I strove for admin in the attempt to protect this community that I valued so much, then I felt hated by this community, and not just by the random trolls that i can deal with but also by members of the admin team. Out of respect for Byte and the other members involved I will not speak on the recent issue but it was the straw that broke the camels back. I was in a bad place of mind and I got pushed, I fell off the cliff and resigned. I dont want or need anymroe of that pressure and hopefully will continue my life. After all this I feel unworthy to return to this community and will not be returning in game or on the forums.
I want to thank my many dear friends who have been there with me through this journey and wish you the best but I will not be returning to have fun with you.
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